Saturday, August 18, 2007

Simple.



I need to give myself some advice.

Step back. Take a deep breath. A DEEP breath. Close the eyes, don't open them again until the mind is clear. Shake out the dust, the overcomplicated web of everyday minutia that covers everything, forget any petty items that are causing you grief and hurt and misunderstanding, purge the details from yourself and concentrate on who you are. Break yourself down to the most simple essence of yourself. It's there, somewhere. Not lost, not gone, just a little buried.

Stop clenching your jaw and grating your teeth. Relax. Remember who and what you are. Go back to that person.

Be.

Listen to more Aaron Copland, like you're doing right now. More Ralph Vaughn Williams, more Percy Grainger, more Paul Hindemith, more Benjamin Britten, more Samuel Barber. Re-read your e.e. cummings, your Paul Bowles. Stare at more Picasso, more Edward Hopper, more Kandinsky, more Gaugin.

You know, all the things you used to do.

And remember the Adlai Stevenson quote you've had memorized for over twenty years:

Your days are short here; this is the last of your springs. And now in the serenity and quiet of this lovely place, touch the depths of truth, feel the hem of Heaven. You will go away with old, good friends. And don't forget when you leave why you came.

15 comments:

Lewis said...

I feel for you, Matt. Really, I do. Simplicity is a word that we use in our home as much as we can. Whether we actually "achieve" it or not is anyone's guess. But it's always to be worked toward. Percy Grainger? Now there's a name I haven't heard in years.....I listened to him do Edvarg Grieg's Concerto in A Minor....an old, scratchy recording. You sound like you've had one of those long summer like I have. Some days, I just need another time and another place. I love your quote. I may use it in a post today....okay with you??

Paul said...

WOW. What an iTunes list that is! And a visual orgy.

And ...

somedays, you need a friend just to chat with. About nothing, and everything. Except everyday minutia.

Let's meet for a drink sometime.

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h a i k u g i r l said...

Your post is great advice for us all - thanks for sharing your inner pep talk.

I'm gonna copy Paul and say that we should all meet for a drink sometime. We can threaten to "totally blog that" and toast things like tagging and html. It will be awesome.

LSL said...

Hey friend-chan, I just love this post. When I read it I felt like we were having a conversation between just the two of us. I really needed this today.

Matt said...

Lewis, Paul and LSL, I've already responded to you ... :)

Haikugirl - we could all be such TOTAL blog geeks together!!! And we can throw out our favorite memes. So awesome.

Darth Gateau said...

Wise advice indeed. Could I add something that would make it totally perfect? A nice bit of cake. Or a biscuit (cookie to you lovely US types!).
Hope your plan works and that you find yourself - just where you want you to be.

Matt said...

Darth - cake is always good. Scott got a "Thank You" cake at work yesterday that he brought home - I know I can't cut into it without him here. But that would be a nice addition to the simplicity I'm looking for ...

Tank said...

Thanks. I needed that. I can't be reminded of those principles too many times.

jo said...

You need family. I'm always here if you ever want to chat.

h a i k u g i r l said...

It would maybe be the best happy hour ever! Let's make it happen - the world will be a better place if we do.

haikugirl@gmail.com

Curtis said...

Boy, did I need to hear that right now!

john said...

Simplicity says so much. I believe in the cliche--less is more.

Darth Gateau said...

oh, I forgot. You also need to pop the kettle on and make a nice poy of tea. Proper stuff mind - not that namby Liptons stuff...
;¬)

Scott said...

How's life Matt? Have you achieved calmness? Hope it's working for you!

Cincy Diva said...

I really needed this today. a lovely post. Have a great weekend!