Tuesday, October 24, 2006

I'm coming out ...

I've been thinking about this for a long time. I've observed others who have done it. I've been encouraged by how others have handled their true identities. I've put it off, hemmed and hawed, but truth be told I think I've been deceiving myself. It's time to come clean. It's time to stop being ashamed and just do it, to say a big loud "fuck you" to anyone who doesn't like it.

I. Am. A Blogger.

There. Wow. Ya know ... I DO feel better. Empowered. Less burdened. Proud, even.

This, kids, is my first foray into the world of The Weblog. It's my first shot at any sort of public writing for ... many years. And honestly, I don't know if I have anything to say. My partner has encouraged me for months that I could and should write something worthwhile. But what? What, you ask in breathless anticipation, will this blog bring to the sometimes oversaturated world it now lives in?

Umm ... I don't know? Is that an okay answer?

Should it be a personal blog about me, my life, my family, with pictures and boring day-to-day stories of running to Safeway and feeding the kids and getting the car washed? About my love of cooking and home and my new exciting adventures into the bonsai experience? Eh, that would be boring. But yeah, of course, some of that will creep in here. I am human, you know.

Should it be a gay blog? About gay rights and convincing our more right-leaning neighbors throughout the world that we're good people too? Hmm. There are a lot of those blogs around too. But, being a gay man with a long-term partner in a liberal city, constantly nursing cuts and bruises from my jaw hitting the floor anytime some bit of conservative right-wing ignorance hits me in the face - yeah, that'll creep in here, too. Boy howdy.

Should it be a political blog? A soapbox to express my views and opinions and suggestions? Oh, wait ... see the previous paragraph ...

So, being a newly out blogger, I don't know what direction this will take me. Or you, if anyone ever stumbles upon this and actually reads it. It'll be an evolving bit of work. A life-altering experience, perhaps. And, if nothing else, it will give me a project to work on and get me to write again.

Oh - and I heard something about receiving a toaster oven? Can someone tell me where I can pick that up?

7 comments:

tacnik said...

if you can imagine me saying 'hi matt' in that drone monotone AA way then... "hi matt!"

don't worry, i don't know what i am rambling on about half the time either, suspect it's the way for most.

it's like toilet paper, but you're wiping your mind... the only difference being you don't flush it away, you keep it in a drawer.. and take it out every so often to look at it.

i don't know where this is going... but i am sure glad we don't do the same thing with real toilet paper.

if you haven't guessed by now, this is what happens to me.. i end up writing my 'next blog post' as someone's comment.. gah...

tak

Kevin said...

just write whatever pops into your head ... that's what i do ...

of course, that's why my posts are generally filled with amalgamations of my insanity and dinner from the night before.

it's all good! welcome to the club

kevin said...

Hey Matt,
Welcome to blogger world,

Im fairly new to blogging as well and i thought the same as you, just what do i write? Things just pop into your head though so keep at it.

I will call by later again to read your blog but have fun.
Kev in New Zealand.

Kevin said...

Heh ... can I brag that I was your first blog to be linked?

Matt said...

Yes, Six ... you have bragging rights. :)

Kevin said...

Woo hoo! I feel so special, so important ...

scottk said...

Welcome to the wonderful world of Blogging !!! Hope you have a blast. Thats what they're here for, and 9 years huh??!! Congrats !